It's like someone got inside my head...

...and wrote this song about my heart and how I feel about God.

This is "Pieces" by Red.

"Pieces"

I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way

Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

I've come undone
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your eye

Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole!

I tried so hard! So hard!
I tried so hard!

Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

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The part that is in bold is beautiful. The singer is basically screaming at the top of his lungs. It's so tragic. You can hear it in his voice. It's exactly how I feel.

I messed up. I failed. But I tried. Do you hear me, GOD!?! I TRIED SO HARD! I DID IT ON MY OWN! I TRIED I TRIED I TRIED!!... I failed.

I can't do it on my own. But I'm experiencing a beautiful brokenness that is reminding me that God will not use a person greatly until He breaks them deeply.

I tried so hard. But I did it without Him. Now, it's time to hold His hand all the way.